lightenings

Imagine a storm in the middle of the night a huge scary thunder and suddently a lightening falls nearby and for a very short dwarf second everything lits, the roofs of the houses the rain the streets, the trees, suddently the night reveals itself and then ....dark again, finished, till the next lightening....
well metaphorically speaking this is what happend a couple of nights ago, suddently I got everything clear, JUST EVERYTHING ok its not the first time that it happens to me but everytime its an event! plus I have to confess that it was long it did not happen again....so I finally understand what I am doing here, of course I knew it before leaving of course but I mean NOW the purpose is absolutely running into my veins (no worries no hard drugs are implied...;) its deeply rooted into my thought... I had the brilliant idea to write down stuff right after the very moment and of course yeah the lightnings are just a dwarf-second long after they leave the darkness as dark as before but i have a good memory (still ahaha)
I am not going to catch a cold (remember? the net cafes and their airco) by writing down all the stuff I got clear but I wanted to leave a record of the very first ZEN moment of this journey.
by the way I kind of make up my mind to go to India finally around April, Pat, my very good Thai friend is coming with me (yhiiiiiipppiiieeee) and that makes everything easier, plus we are hanging around with genial Dudu the japanese guy that is probably coming with us too and he is an indian cowboy alreay for 4 years, (kind of hard core traveller you meet at the park in Bkk, the japanese ones beats them all, trust me ahaha) so all this came up when I decided to go anyway what the hell, yeah like this , good news is that he has 'interesting' contacts in Bangladesh where we are going to spend a night hihihihihi, I keep meeting the same kind of people everywhere I go, it must be genetically disposed...mama what did you do to me..?
well some practical stories
today and tomorrow there is a theatre festival in the park and believe me its BABILONIA over here!!! any kind of performance and pubblic, I was not able to play my pois for more then 5 minutes without somebody coming asking for juggling infos :o)) maybe I'll give classes back in the nederlands ahahaha
for you guys in the cold just breath in breath out and the winter will go before you know, like my trip (sigh sigh)